New Direction, part two

That had been probably the most frustrating day at work ever. After the meeting, I decided that I was never going back into another meeting. I told a couple of people, and they reminded me that I should at least tell one of my superiors of this decision. A good idea, because I was pretty incensed. So, I went to K.H. and told him what was up. He told me that they were having an internal meeting later, and he and M.M. would talk with A.S. about getting me out. A nice gesture, but also felt too little too late. They all knew how dissatisfied I was for a long while now, months. Why couldn't anything have happened before?

When I left that day, the internal meeting raged on, and raged until 1800 that night. Didn't really give a damn, as I'd had a second meeting at T.S., scheduled for after work because I could not take that long a lunch during the meeting. In retrospect, I should've just taken the lunch and not returned to work.

Being after five, the office was nearly abandoned by the time I arrived. P.G. had stayed a little later so we could meet. And meet we did. I was (again) taken aback at the dressing down (still always caught up in the perpetual mindset of l-school and lawyers and all sorts of other loathsome l-words, like lesbians in lace), as well as the fairly casual nature of the interview. There wasn't even a desk between us, unlike my interview at L.M., where a desk separated us, as well as the great divide of what the hell to do with me.

I.S., when he interviewed me, gave me a fairly standard answer as to what my job responsibilities would be. Those didn't materialize (until recently, but we'll get to that in a second). P.G., as well as everyone else I talked with, gave me a standard answer as to what my job responsibilities would be. P.G., however, also told me the general expectation for now and the future. There is no way the future expectation can happen unless I am tasked to do that which they tell me I should.

I also felt more at ease here than when I was interviewing at L.M. I.S. wanted to stump me. He wanted to trip me up, and he did so a lot. For all of his questions about databases and testing programs and so forth, not a single one actually related to the job as it became. So, his interview proved I could do someone else's job, but didn't really confirm that I could do my own. P.G., on the other hand, put me at ease (though I will always be slightly nervous when it comes to people and interviews and the like). We just talked.

At the end of it, I received an unofficial offer (and over the weekend, I have received an actual offer letter). I told him that I would require a couple of days to think about it, because I don't ever want to jump into a decision such as a job immediately, ever again. Sadly, this decision had been made, perhaps for the last couple of months, that I could no longer work at L.M. The only reason I'm waiting for Monday to accept is because I had a busy weekend, and no one works over the weekend... right? I wanted desperately to say yes, but I had to slow it down.