A.A. put it best when he told me that TANSTAAFL in medicine. No matter the benefits gained, the person also incurs drawbacks. Sometimes, it's a matter of whether the pluses outweigh the minuses, such as injecting heroin into your veins for a high, and obtaining that heroin-chic look, in exchange for ruining yourself. Other times, it's a matter of if you can combat the downsides with more medicine, such as weaning yourself off of heroin via methadone.
The main benefits, as I see them:
Increased alertness, without the jitters associated with caffeine consumption. Very sweet.
Increased focus and concentration. Useful at work.
Mood elevation. Who knew?
Possibly more outgoing, as I was talking nicely to my laptop, rather than cursing at it.
The main drawbacks:
Quick addiction. On Friday morning, after I'd taken three in two days, I decided to not take any, when I woke up and my first thought was to pop one. Also, I did seem to be a little more depressed, i.e. back to normal, though this could be because I hadn't run for a little while.
Response suppressant, or the "I'm a robot" factor. Friday morning, I did take one at 0800 at work. We normally get brunch around 1030, so I decided not to eat breakfast, especially since I wasn't hungry. It turned out I was, when I got some food at 1100, and my whole body was shaking while I walked. I actually did need food.
Not sleeping. I like sleep, but until that Wednesday night, I wasn't sure how much.
Possible paranoia, moreso than normal.
The final judgment? I take one in lieu of morning coke or coffee. Per pill, it is cheaper than a cup of coffee, and a little more expensive than a twenty ounce bottle of coke. But it has some amazing effects. I also limit myself to one a day, absent extenuating circumstances.
I do note that it takes a while to metabolize, and wonder how modafinil, or new derivatives coming down the pipeline, would affect me. I also will start to plan the mad quest for staying up for 100 hours, and will document that for your pleasure. My body is a laboratory.
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