Asperger's Syndrome

Take the test. I scored a 23, apparently just below your average math contest winner. It also correlates into me not having Asperger's Syndrome.

This will sound strange, but I was almost hoping that I had Asperger's Syndrome, to help explain away the poor social skills. At least then, it would be another reason, a better reason, than just being shy.

It drives me crazy, because I do want to be social, but sometimes I just get really uncomfortable about it. Even among my friends, there will be some occasions when I'll just get that feeling, that heart-gripping sensation, and want to be alone.

It's not that I want to be normal, which is what I used to tell myself all the time. "Why can't I be normal?" If anything, there are times I revel in my peculiar brand of insanity. No, I think it's sometimes more that I want to be accepted. And I know on some level that I am. I guess it is that I wish I didn't stand out so much.