Time Enough

I've been exhausted all day, hell, all week. And now, It's almost 1, and I don't want to go to sleep. Not that I'm awake, I'm actually pretty tired. Or is that pretty and tired?

(looks in mirror)

Nope, just pretty tired.

There's no real good reason for me staying up this late, but here I am, whittling away at my sleep time, shaving off precious slivers, till all that's left is a sharp spike that's only going to make me cranky when I wake up, because what was there was just enough to whet my appetite.

I've had no problem sleeping in this hotel room, this foreign room, this room that I have to call home for the next little while. My dreams haven't really been bad, beyond the normal in-a-classroom dreams. A good night's sleep would actually be pretty freaking welcome. So, what's keeping me awake?

Strange as it sounds, this business trip to NY also constitutes a vacation from my normal life. And damn, I did not realize how much I needed it. The working sort of sucks, what with the inconsistencies and problems the project seems mired in. However, up in NY, there's no need to have to deal with all the responsibilities and requirements of "home." Paid off all the immediate debts just before I left, so now I can just do my thing. It feels good, even if most of what I am doing is the same as down there.

This only further whets my appetite for moving out of the DC metro area, or at least back to MD. Most of you I like in one form or another, but not enough of you close enough to me. In addition, some of the best moments in my life have been when I was pretty much alone, out of my comfort zone, and forced to adapt (see: Trip to Europe. Ironically, see also: Law school. One helped me realize I'm likable. The other taught me I can survive).

Here I am, and I do actually need to sleep soon, for we're running low on time to sleep. But I want to hold dearly onto what I have left awake, for it's only a matter of time before I get sucked right back into my normal life, and I don't know if I can readjust so readily.